On the last day of 2009, I am chilling in my undecorated home office with my morning cup of coffee reflecting on the past year.
I started 2009 in a new hotel doing a job I was forced to do if I wanted to stay employed with my company. I had just left my position as a Director and was back to selling events as a regular old sales manager. My heart was weary about taking a step back career wise. I contemplated changing industries, leaving the business…hell, I just felt defeated. In addition, I knew that job cuts and layoffs lay ahead in the upcoming year.
Career wise, this has been the toughest year I have ever faced. I learned alot about my inner strength and character this year. I allowed myself time to be depressed about the situation. After ten years, I was allowed to throw a minor pity party.
However, I decided to tackle the new job with everything I had. I came in to an underperforming hotel and performed. I made myself valuable to the team and ended up finishing this year at 114% to my goal.
I proved to myself that my job does not define me. I do. As we geared up for the sales transformation (That’s layoffs in corporate speak) and interviews, I studied and prepared and ended up landing a job. I was one out of 14 hired out of an initial team of over 50 salespeople. I am proud of myself. It wasn’t easy and the stress of thinking about managing my home and two children on one salary was weighing heavily on me. I am not one to share my problems with people because I tend to think it’s selfish. I hate talking about how big MY problems are whan I know so many other people are facing far worse. I kept it to myself and only a handful knew how stressed and worried I really was.
What did I learn? I know that what I want for myself isn’t always what I need. The immediate disappointment of losing my title was only preparation for an even better job. One where I can work from home, set my own hours and manage my own territory and acounts. It means spending more time at home with my boys and less time commuting or working late. God had something better in store for me. I just needed to have faith, focus on what I could do each day and wait for my blessing. I needed to stop second guessing and questioning my life. Once I accepted the situation and made the most of it, everything around me started clicking into place.
In the past decade, I grew up. I married my husband in 2000 and had two wonderful sons in the years that followed. We purchased our first home and moved away from our families to begin our own. We have grown together as a family and will continue to do so even more in the next ten years.
Everything hasn’t been perfect for us but, as I have learned and can now appreciate, the blessings are on their way. Each day is another stepping stone leading us to that path. I have to accept the change and obstacles life throws my way because all they are doing is getting me ready and mentally prepared for the good things to follow.
I’m excited for the next ten years of watching my Tali’s grow, being with Mr. 1969 and living life to the fullest. I want to thank you all for sharing some of those times with me. Writing this blog has been a high point of the last decade too. I appreciate all of the friends I have met and not met yet. Your reading truly makes me happy and I look forward to even better stories in the years to come.
I just wanted to take this opportunity to wish you all a happy 2010. I wish you all prosperity, good health and strength in the new year. God Bless!